Halu there..
Quite some time i nvr post and ppl kept asking me why and the answer is : idk wad to psot about..So yea,nw i noe wad i need to do..
This year has been hard for me..I meant,i have to test my limits..
I changed my attitude,I dont dare start a fight but i always have the intention to hurt someone violently..I had to be forgiving all the time,even when i'm nt in the wrong,i just have to give in..I did many wrong things,i hurt people's feeling but idk wad to feel,sometimes i feel happy when i hurt them but there's always guilt..
I even fought wif my bestfwen and dat really hit me hard..
I actually have a goal in this year but i can't coz dats not the real me..
Some say dat I change my attitude from sec 3 but idk if its true coz i still have the 'violence' side..2009 made my class bond's more stronger..We get into much more trouble..And still,I'm proud to be ur vice presidents..Although Me and Bai make a bad example of a class president,we still have laughters in the end..Did i ever mention dat i have an iritating 2009 wif Hafiy?..Everytime when i looked ard the class,his face will appear and he will prepare his ejek face..I just have to prepare to run at him or either ejek him back..I also made new fwens in TWSS..Most of them are sec 1s and they are the same like Syakirin's gang when i first met Syak..
The new sec 1s always bully me and they are,Hayati,Syafiqah,Arfah,Erliana,Nysah,Alyaa and my lil fighter,Hidayah..I had to give in when they bully me..Especially HAYATI..Wah,dat gerl,kept wanting for more..She even pulled my hair,pulled my laces and much more evil things..If only i could put a leash on her neck..Heheh..
Nw I'm getting more closer with my parents..I just have to be nice to them and everythings fine..Heh,coz last time i was the naughty,rude,bad tempered boy in the family..Nw dad's becoming more KPO wif gerls dat i'm cntcting wif..U noe i noe ayte..
But at the end of 2009,i did many bad things..Awful things..Woah,i just can't believe it..But still,my parents are understanding and they knew wad i'm going through..So yea,nw i'll try to change,i'll try not to be forgiving even when i'm nt in the wrong..I'll try not to always control my anger,if i juz can't control it,i'll blast it out..Dats wad i wan..And yea,i noe dat i have hurt people's feelings this year,maybe hurt it dat badly till i can't you can't forgive me..Yea i realised my mistakes,i admit it..And maybe there's nothing i can do but to hope..
And yea,my 4 Hans,I'll nvr forget the times we had,most of our time,we laughed,get into trouble,suspended fom skool,we still have a great time together..Can't believe its gone nw,wad a great loss..Once in a lifetime thing to happen..

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